Dear Ryan Seth and Ryli…

First I want to apologize that your FB page is no longer up because someone in your family (dads side) reported it.

I had written to you guys almost daily. I posted pictures to include you in OUR life unlike that side of the family. I said happy birthday to each one of you every year. All that is GONE. any time I thought of you I wrote to you. It’s gone. They don’t want you to know we think of you. I’ve called several times and I never get a call back. There’s nothing we can do my babies. That side of the family are very vindictive. I’m going to post a voicemail that Becky left THREE TIMES. I’ve never in a million years hurt that women or have I hurt your grAndma. But they hate us because we don’t live like kings. There is so much I’m going to tell you here. And they can read it. They’ve punished us for things I write about here.

I have to go now. I’m going to cry for a few then have dinner.



We were told not to put this online by mama’s or else we’ll never get another picture. But this is the first we’ve gotten from them in a year. I want to show you off. I don’t see why we can’t.




Ryli you always walked around with your blanket over your head lol


Ryan 2yrs old 4th of July … mama knows that’s my favorite holiday with you guys but she won’t let us come to the fireworks or anything. It’s been 5 years since we’ve spent a holiday or birthday with you guys… you know why? F2f Hey claim your daddy stole food from his own mother’s house. FOOD!!!!
This is what we deal with. She doesn’t think about if you’re hurting. She thinks about US hurting because that’s what she wants.

Hope whoever did that to the kids on FB is happy with theirself. Karma … I believe. When they know the truth it will backfire. We’ve done nothing to deserve you keeping our kids out of our lives.

And Becky… I’m not corrupting your nephew, I hate to be the one to remind you… he was corrupted when he left home and has been since. He d out d everything he did on his most of the time I didn’t even know so you can stick f2f hat hypo th hrs is up h our ass.. And why do you think a child who could have anything he wanted would walk away from that? Figure it out, “you fucking bitch.” That’s what you called me on the voicemail I’m going to post. And worse! So I was just mocking you because I don’t care if youre a bitch or not. You’re not in my life thank god. ..  But I won’t wish you to die like you did to me. That will get you into he’ll which you were probably already going. You can’t even keep your sisters in your life. Just sad your whole family is so dysfunctional but try to play house. My kids k Mmmmm ow who really love them and money can’t buy it.

If you don’t like what I write…

Don’t read my blog. I never mention your name and nobody I or you know reads my blog and it is my blog. When you start doin right by us, I won’t have to write things like this. We are good people. We don’t deserve to be away from our kids. Most mothers would go out of their way to make sure the kids see us. Your not only hurting your son but your hurting our kids. They’re just too scared to tell you, I’m their mother. I know.

A letter to my kids: My Email Address

Dear kids,

How are you? I am writing to let you know I think about you every day. I wish I had a car, I wish Mamaw and Papaw would bring you to us so we can see you. I know it’s not their job but I just wish they would have some compassion and also think about you 3. I don’t want you guys to grow up thinking we dont care.

I have an email address you can email me to. It’s

I hope one day you will email me.



CPS Corruption & Kidnapping of our Children

Ive been doing a lot of research on Cps and the money scam they’ve got going on.

In face, thousands across the country are getting together to file a civil lawsuit on this crime.

They are kidnapping children at alarming rates. And its time to take a stand.

Thousands of families across the county are making this happen and soon there will be a complete overhaul of Child Protective Services in ALL states and a lot of parents will be getting their children back.

So if you come across this blog and you have been researching the scam they’ve been running for years, do your homework. There are several groups out there to get involved in. They need your information to include in the suit. 

There are hundreds of lawsuits being files across the country and it will all be crumbling down soon. I cant wait.

i will be fighting with them.

if you only knew

my husbands family hates me. That’s ok. They’ve hated all the girls he’s been with until they split up and then they’re best friends. but we’ve been together for 20 years. I’ve taken care of him for 15 years.

his aunt has a hatred like no other for me. She’s telling my hub that she’s seen video of me sucking dick and eating pussy lol. so untrue. she told him she knows something so traumatic that she can’t tell him because he’d  kill me. lol my husband knows everything I do and everything about me.

it blows my mind how much his family hates me. I’ve done nothing but love their son, nephew etc. I’ve done nothing but love his family even tho its not mutual.

so all I  can say is…I love him. and that’s all that matters. what I do to take care of him is no ones business because no one is helping us. his whole family has turned their backs on him, BROKEN his heart INTO TINY LITTLE PIECES and they expect him to leave me? FAT FUCKING CHANCE.
Dream on….


I used to love Christmas

But without my kids,  it means nothing to me anymore…

Everyone says ” well why don’t you call them more often?  Why don’t you see them more?”

Well… Nobody understands how hard it is on us and i’m sure the kids and his mother when we call them. It takes a toll on us so hard it takes us 2 days to recover & get back to normal.  It’s heartbreaking. It kills us. We only get 2 minutes each on the phone and its really hard to have a conversation in 2 minutes.

It’s also very hard on rick that he doesn’t have a mother to love.  He understands she doesn’t like me.    But she IS his mother.  And those are our kids. He can’t stand the thought of calling only to get treated like an outcast. Mother’s should love their child.  Even if they think he took some shrimp.

They should always be there for there child no matter how many times he done things wrong or even burnt bridges.  That’s what unconditional love is… But for him,  he no longer exists.  And it’s torn him apart.  He’s not the same person anymore.  He has no one except me.

Calling the kids is the best but the following 2 days really take a toll on our mental stability… We literally are so depressed after we talk to them that it takes those 2 days to talk to each other,  cry with each other and pray together until we feel normal again. 
She told me a couple times that our kids never ask about us.  In  my opinion that’s something I would never tell my child about his kids and also when it becomes her responsibility to have them call us.

Yes I’m aware we should call them too.  But as long as she’s had them,  not once had she called us to tell us about any progress they’ve made,  if one of them gets hurt and anything else a parent should know.

My youngest broke her collar bone.  I didn’t find out until I called a week after it happened.  That was so sad that she couldn’t call her son to let him know about what happened. I didn’t find out until I called. What good is going to come from keeping his children from him?
We never get updates on their school,  she’s never given its any work from school life art work or report cards. T that’s her responsibility as a mother who cares about her s OK n. I guess that’s why none of that happens.

Live your children unconditionally. Love your grandchildren enough to do things you don’t want to do but know that it’s the right thing t OK  do.

Love your child. You’re killing his soul. You’re killing him. And in the long run, you’re hurting your grandchildren. You’re robbing them of something every child should have in their life. No matter what the circumstances are with your relationship with your child.

In the end, your hurting a lot of people because you think you’re doing what’s best. But its not best. It’s  the worst thing you could do.
Hate me forever. Hate your son forever.

But please don’t take it out on the children over some shrimp that we didn’t take. That in itself hurt her son so much that the thought of not being able to get food from his own mother that he didn’t even get.
Just love him. Let him know you love him.  You’d make his day.

Merry Christmas.  I mean that.

Children Services + Family + Friends= You’re Fucked

Yes, I was once involved with them. Yes I stupidly agreed to hand over custody to my in laws because I thought they were at least honest people. Even though I knew they hated me, I thought they had the right morals to not drag my kids in the middle of our thing. I was wrong.

If You ever get a knock on your door from children services, you do not have to answer the door, or if you did, yout Do Not have to let them in. PLEASE REMEMBER THAT.

In my case, yes I brought it on myself because of the job I had. Nothing else. But my in-laws just kept adding fuel to the fire. Your family’s answers to any question cps asks should always be “I don’t know”. In my case, my mother in law (we’ll call her Johna) told them everything she thought she knew.

When confronted about why she talked, her response was, “I’m not going to lie. I am not a liar. I will not lie for anyone”. But let me tell a story about how she doesn’t lie (unless it benefits her)…

It was close to the beginning of a new school year and Johna was  kind enough to buy my kid’s clothes for school.  I was so grateful. When she told my husband she would leave them on her porch because she was going to bed, we went to get them…

No bag of clothes.

So when got home we called her and told her they weren’t out there and she started freaking out saying someone must have stolen them.

I was so upset. One; because someone stole them but two; because SHE bought them and someone stole them. I was sad for her because I know she spent a lot of money on 3 kids for clothes. She told my husband HER ONLY CHILD, she had the whole neighborhood looking for the and called the police to file a theft report.  It sucked.

Fast forward a year later,  Johna was arguing with her sister (Becca) and she told us Johna lied. She had Becca go to her house and get the bag off her porch so she could lie and say they were stolen because she didn’t want me to get anything from her.  It didn’t hurt me. It hurt her grandkids. I cannot believe a woman of her age would stoop so low to do something like that. I’m more mature than that !!!

So she does lie. And she is a horrible person. Yes she is taking very good care of my kids but in the meantime she’s mentally abusing them by not letting us see them.
Her own son hasn’t seen his kids in a year. 
Yes,  its partly our fault because they live an hour away and we don’t have a car.  But if those are my Grandkids, I’d make sure my daughter saw her kids. Not for my daughter if I was upset with her,  but because I loved my Grandkids enough to make them happy.  Instead she would rather them forget us.

The moral to this story is  your family is more than likely the one who called cps on you and most likely the one who will be a CI for cps. Your family know the most about you so it only makes sense. Don’t talk to ANYONE while dealing with Cps.

When I was, I would intentionally say something to Johna just to see if when I saw my caseworker she would say something about it.  Sure enough.  Everytime.

I’ve tried to get close to Johna but she doesn’t forgive and forget . She hates me and that’s fine.  But she shouldn’t be taking her hatred for me out on my kids. She tells me they don’t even ask about us. I would never tell me daughter that about her kids.

My husband is heart broken that he doesn’t have a mother. I’m the one who made him revive his relationship with her because when we first got together they weren’t taking.

Big fucking mistake.  Now I know why. She ruined his future when he was 18 and now keeps his kids from him. We are only allowed to talk to them on the phone for 2 minutes each. We’re not allowed to video chat.

I feel so bad for my husband. He doesn’t show it but he’s my husband and i can see it. It kills him he doesn’t have a mother to confide in. A mother to love him unconditionally. My mom isn’t the best but she would never treat me like a piece of trash. 

You don’t have much longer on this earth. You’re more than welcome to leave a comment or call and bitch me out but I’m sure you’ll just take it out on my kids. Stop having people do your dirty work. Suck it up cowgirl.  Do it yourself.